♥ Tuesday, January 16, 2007
life's bittersweet..
hey peeps.. back.. been quite lazy and busy this past week.. school term has started and practical starts on the very first week!! I thought that i might have a week or 2 to slack before practical starts.. but guess wad.. i'm already busy on this first week.. already need to do OT.. luckily it aint on a daily basis..
My uncle passed away last friday.. ='( it came as a sudden news.. he's 69.. he just fainted.. n went back into God's Kingdom.. He's one of the distant relatives whom we would visit at least once a year during CNY.. but still we remembered him.. A nice old uncle to chat with.. a joval soul who loves to tease me and my bros.. My dad was particularly affected by the news.. as it was his older bro.. My uncle was a robust old man for his age.. still working night shifts daily.. he lives with my aunt alone.. He will surely be remembered fondly of..
Fragilty of life..
Spent my weekend shuffling between my home and the wake at woodlands.. the amat 'driver' of the family.. not a fantastic way to spend the weekends.. i dun like to sit at the wake.. eating peanuts.. getting fat... and eating more peanuts.. making small talk to relatives i havent seen in a while..
i just hate it.. i mean like i dun like catching-up with relatives during a wake.. you know.. i rather be chatting with them during happier occasions like CNY.. i couldnt stand it on the second day.. thus.. i hid in my car.. and just read my book.. after abt an 1 1/2 hr.. i came back to show my face again.. sat there for another 1 hr.. then we left abt 10.40pm.. had to work the next day so didnt wanna stay till too late..
What i do like about a Christian funeral is that.. you wont hear people crying their heart out.. shouting at the top of the voice at the beheavement of their beloved.. Just maybe shed a tear or two for the one who lived a life blessing others.. we believe that the dead have gone on to a better place.. God's place.. A christian wake is more for the living then the dead... to comfort the living.. to remember the dead.. Looking at my aunt.. just brings sadness to my eyes.. the love-of-her-life has gone.. leaving her behind.. somehow it just aches me to think about what she has to go thru' at her age..
Been thinkin if this ever happens to me.. how would i be able to live? with such a big piece of my heart ripped out.. sadness.. sadness.. then i cont'd to think what if it happens to my parents.. my bros.. my future hubby *if i ever find one..*... for someone like me.. who's super emotional.. i think i might just die?? hmm.. just mayb just cry my eyes out.. hmm.. sad sad.. haiz... ...
well.. it's just comforting to know that in the end.. we will still be together.. together in heaven..
"Everything's in God's Hands"... ...
Michy signing off… 10:45 AM