♥ Tuesday, February 28, 2006
"In ur anger, do not sin"
yup.. this verse juz popped up in my head.. .. In my anger, do not sin.. cant remember which part of the bible this came fr.. Oh Lord, u know i am reallie trying... ... ... ... ... sob~~ well, i have controlled my anger awfully todae.. cant believe that i cried, neh.. more like tear-ed in the mrt.. no..no.. not tears of sadness but tears of anger!! Man was i pissed this evening.. all this bull sh*t.. .. wanna know my reason of being so angry? this is the long long story...
reason no. 1) the working hours will be changed fr 8 - 4.30pm to 9 -6pm.. from tomorrow onwards.. and when was i informed abt this? ON MY WAY HOME TODAY AT 5 PM!! I MEAN I HAVE A LIFE U KNOW?? MY LIFE NOT ONLY REVOLVES AROUND MY JOB!! i told her i have other commitments like tuition and asked her nicely whether i can only start on new workin hours next wk.. she RAISED her voice and said "i'm sure u can make other arrangement, this is goin to last for the whole month u know? i cant find any1 else to cover u.. blah blah blah " i mean i only asking for a grace period of wat?? 3 days??? U CANT GIMME EVEN 3 DAYS?? WHAT BULL SH*T??? AND U GIMME THIS LAST MINUTE INFOR?? now i have to change my entire tution schedule and my discipling with katherine as well.. Damn pissed sia...
reason no. 2) i've basically been floating around in the lab.. I CANNOT UNDERSTAND WAT'S THE TRAINING SCHEDULE FOR ME?? DO THEY WANNA TRAIN ME UP PROPERLY OR TREAT ME LIKE A FOOL?? on moment i'm doing trimming, the next moment i'm doing embeddin, then i'm doing slide sorting, then i'm outside learning to receive specimen, then i'm assistin the pathologist in the grossing, then i'm learning microtomy?? WTH?? CANT THEY TEACH ME PROPERLY?? HOW NOT TO GET FED UP ABT THIS?? i trim slow, they scold. i embed slow, they scold.. i do something wrong, they scold... IF U DUN TEACH ME PROPERLY HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LEARN?? DUN PUT ME HERE AND THERE AND TREAT ME LIKE A FOOL!!!
reason no. 3) some of my colleague are the BIGGEST *female-dog*...argh~~ dun gimme this kinda crap ok?? SCOLDING ME LIKE I DUN EXIST IN THE ROOM? SAYING THINGS LIKE.. "U GO OUT LAH.. DO SO SLOW.. I THINK BY 3 PM ALSO CANNT FINISH CUTTING.. " wah.. wat a "FANTASTIC" encouragement huh?? everyone's juz temperamental in the lab... WAT IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD???
etc..etc.. shall not go on any longer... all the shitty stuff anyway...
so feel like just goin on a mission trip.. fly myself far far away.. away from all these... juz serving God and growing spiritually with him as my one and only support.. ...
Michy signing off… 10:17 PM